After being at the hospital today I started feeling sick. I think I have food poisoning. I can't put my finger on where I would have picked up though, I eat out each day so the choices are emense. I am glad it is not contageous. I hope I feel better in the morning so I can be at the hospital with no hinderance.
There was not alot of change today. Nicole's lungs are not inflating like they should so respritory came in several times today to force air into her lungs to get then to work better. I hope the test results comeback soon so we can get the right antibiotics on board. I know that will make a differance.
Nicole is just exhausted from everything. She slept most of the day. It is hard to see her just sleeping. I want to talk to her and tell her she is amazing. I want to instill in her all the things a mother should teach their child. I want to tell her about my day and the amazing things I have been reading about or seeing or watching outside.
When the kids were little we would take lots of walks. They would each have a zip lock bag in hand. (It was for all the treasures we would find.) We would explore different areas like walking on the banks of the irrigation ditch on Fardown Ave. They would find pussy willows and pebbles, long willowy blades of grass or cat tails. Each child would put their lucky finds in their bag and we would go home and dicuss what we found.
One time we made collages from treasures. Christian made a picture that used bark and leaves to make "real" trees and grass to make, grass of course. Then he got pussy willows and took them apart to make billowy clouds. Water color filled in the rest. I loved his imagination. The world is a wonderous place. We are in no shortage of places to explore. All we have to do is look around us. The world is an open door to all possibility.