Monday, September 14, 2009

Day 72

Sweet Nicole. Man I love her. What in the world would I do with out her. She is a light that has always been in my life. Different from Christian.

Christian has brought to me a light that shines deep in my soul. His smile lightens me from the inside out. Always had. One day I took him to school. It was elementary. You know how older kids get to the point where they don't want their friends to see them kissing their mothers. Well, he was getting out of the car. He kissed me and he started to get out. I gently touched his arm and he looked back at me. I asked him for an extra kiss that day explaining that one day he wouldn't want to kiss his mother. Christian grabbed me around the neck and tightly gave me a squeeze and a kiss. Then he took my face in his hands and looked me in the eye. He smiled and said, "Don't worry mom, I will kiss you all the days of my life." Man I love him.

Christian is a gentle giant. His quiet demeanor and his seemingly endless love for others is a gift.

Nicole on the other hand is not a quiet thing. She is a thought provoking girl. She looks at life differently. Mostly because she is different. She doesn't learn like others, she doesn't think like others. She is her own unique self governed by a light inside. Don't get me wrong. She doesn't' always Choose The Right. But she does choose to have God in her life. To know her Savior and to follow His teaching to the best of her capability.

One thing I have learned as a parent is we all make mistakes. We all learn differently. We all can only do the best we can with the knowledge that we have at the time. Wouldn't it be nice to just have all the knowledge we need to be able to accomplish all. Well maybe it would be nice but look at all we would miss out on. GROWTH is what we would miss out on. Look back on all the experiences you wouldn't have had without mistakes you made. I am grateful for the mistakes I have made because it makes me a better person.

Today Nicole went to PT. She was doing well until her breathing was erratic and labored. They took her straight back to her room and laid her down. It subsided fairly quickly but she had to have wound care in bed and PT was finished in bed as well as PT this afternoon. She also has been extra sleepy for two days. She arouse pretty well but falls right back to sleep.

If I was in her shoes I wold want to sleep all the time.

Dr. Morris said we couldn't use the Cold Laser after all. I am not sure what is going on there but you can bet I will be talking to him right when I get back. I don't get it.

1 comment:

Jeanne said...

Your heart must break everyday. That is what the Savior has asked of us a broken heart and contrite spirit so that He can put it back together in a celestial way as we come to Him. I'm so sorry that you are going through this. You need to know that others are also bearing this with you in a small way.