Leaving Kansas is bitter sweet. I love Kansas. I love the people, I love the patients, I love the seasons and I love the landscapes. Yes it is flat but that is one thing I like about it. Sometimes the mountains make me feel claustrophobic. And my biggest bitter sweet reason is I am leaving John again for 2 weeks. On the other hand I will be able to see Nicole and Christian. Enter back into the world of the unknown but at least I will be there finding my way.
I just don't get the hospital and why they do things the way they do. Sometimes I don't think they use their heads. So many things would be so much better if they would just listen to me instead of having to reinvent the wheel with Nicole. Today I made a comment to a nurse over the phone about Nicole. She questioned me on why I thought I knew that. "Well", I responded "because I am her mother. I know her and I know this about her". Are you kidding. It seems so simple to me how things should work. I don't get why they have to make things so difficult or make so many steps to get one thing accomplish.
Nicole's pain level was very extreme again today. I hope they can do something.
Christian didn't go to the neurologist after all. He re-scheduled for a day that I can be there.
Flying to Utah in 2 hours.