What a fun time we had with the Orr's last night. We swan in the pool although I thought it was kind of cold and we just sat around a talked forever. Our friends are the kind of friends that we just pick up right where we left off. No getting to know you stage no awkward stuff in the beginning. So nice.
So, yesterday was a really hard day at Journey. Well most of it was OK but towards the end we did this exercise where you write down all the junk anyone has ever told you over the years, for example, you are stupid, your ugly, I don't want to play with you, your not my friend, your fired, etc, etc, etc. Then you pair up with someone and the music is up really loud so you can't really hear the other person and they can't really hear you. You tell them how it all makes you feel and stuff. Then you take your paper you wrote the stuff on and put it in this huge bonfire outside and watch it burn up. Well, actually it was quite freeing. Everyone has junk in their life and everyone wishes they could get rid of it. Well this is certainly a great way to do it. John and I just stood there and watched all our junk burn up.
When we went back in to the conference center it was like starting over with a clean slate. Rebuilding who you are and rebuilding good thoughts you put in your brain and good thoughts that others put there too. We are constantly in flux about how we feel about our selves and how we want others to feel about us.
Now the work begins. It is not about me or I, it is about us and we. How we as a group, family, couple work together for the greater good of all is what it is about. We can't do anything on our own. It is not all about us and what we can do for us. 'We are a family, a community, a congregation, a state, a nation.'
What I do today can affect the rest of my life.